Thursday, April 28, 2011

Finding peace in the music

When I began to listen to music I really wanted to play like the guys I used to listen. Then I bought a guitar, an acoustic and cheap one. I practiced hard all nights and was not so bad :P. After some years I bought an electric guitar and literally my fingers bled due I was practicing a lot. And the study, friends and other passions just take place and the old fire colour guitar was forgotten.

Now that I’m living hard times I remember how playing guitar helped me a lot to get through hard times. Before going to sleep I used to play random rhythms just to let imagination fly. That was special, it was like slowing the beat of your heart while your mind was thinking in new ideas and stuff. Now during the nights I’m having the same feeling, the need of play guitar while I’m thinking.

Last week I cleaned my old guitar, now it is ready to receive a new strings set. But that is an electric guitar and now I’m feeling more folk :). So I decided to buy a new guitar, an electroacoustic guitar. Next month I will check the best option and I will tell you which one is going to me my new peace instrument.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

The equation of happiness

I believe that you need a finite number of thing to be happy. And, as in the math equations, these things need to be in a perfect equilibrium to achieve happiness. A mathematical equation has three parts, the left side (in this case happiness), the equal sign and the right side (the set of things that are related and that describe the left side). If something is missing in the right side, the result won’t be the desired; and also something can be minimizing the goal.

In this moment this is my case. If I look backwards and sum all the things I’ve achieved and done in my life anyone could say that I’m happy. But no. In this moment there are some items in the equation that are reducing my chances to be happy. And you know when your equation is not balanced, you know which are the things that are not helping in the achieving of your happiness. Now is my Master Thesis the one who is getting me away of my happiness. I’m kind of lost, I don’t see the goal or the north. Things are blur and I’m desperate. I need to see the north to define my path. I feel that  my life is going and nobody will give my time back.

This is the moment when I have to decide if I keep going in the master or just leave it for a while in order to think the things better and choose the right path. Meanwhile there is a song in my head. For me this song means the end of something, when you leave the well known path and take the adventure of discover new ways to live. Hopefully I will find new ways to solve my equation.

The end of an era

Thursday, April 21, 2011

This is it!

These words have been in my mind for some days. In this moment of my life I’ve so many options and so many things to do that I don’t know where to start them. And also some disappointments have appeared making me desperate in some moments. But I realize that this is the moment, now is when I’ve to take the decisions that are going to improve my life. I was concerned about leaving things behind or just getting myself out of the equation.  And then I remember a quote from a movie:

It's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be.
There's no time limit, stop whenever you want.
You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing.

So that would be it, I’m going to change some things and take the decisions that will lead me to the person who I want to be. In the next posts I’m going to introduce the decisions and options I have to achieve that goal. You, my dear reader, will be my adviser in this path that is just to begin :) .