Friday, December 31, 2010


As the last day of this year it is an habit to write about the 365 days that have passed and make some wishes for the ones that start. This post is about all the 356 days that passed away.

I can remember when we were watching, through the news (Internet was not available for us in that moment), how the world said goodbye to 1999, to the last century of the second millennium. Today the first year of the second decade of the third millennium is over and that’s something, at least for me, that make you think about your achievements and failures during this year. As I remember in my post of wishes for 2010 I hoped this year to be memorable and I set up some goals to achieve during 2010. Now I have to say that had goals bigger than the year itself. For the 6 goals proposed for this year I achieved zero (0).  The reasons of this failure are several:

  • Mainly the lost of passion. When I wrote the resolutions I was deeply passionate about the new year, but as the days passed I lost it, and I didn’t find it again.
  • As the passion was lost, the north was blur. In February I lost the north, specially regarding my thesis topic.
  • Also it helped the fact to be alone, I’ve realized that I need in my life somebody that clear the glasses of my soul and let her be.
  • When the passion goes the procrastination arrives. I could had read more, but without passion I spend a lot of time doing nothing.
  • As Paulo Cohelo said:The first symptom of the process of our killing our dreams is the lack of time. The busiest people I have known in my life always have time enough to do everything. Those who do nothing are always tired and pay no attention to the little amount of work they are required to do. They complain constantly that the day is too short”. This happened to me this year, specially with the journey wish. I didn’t have time to travel, but I had it to be lazy.
  • As a result of the laziness I gain some kilos.

I’m being painfully, brutally honest with me, and you also. Honestly I’m not proud of this year, this was not what I expected one year ago. The reasons of why I lost the passion, become lazy, being more alone than ever are ... ... ... I have no idea. But, hopefully, the last weeks of this year have been quite nice and I begin to feel alive, again! Everything seems to go OK by now, except for my thesis (still my headache). I’ve read some books again, I’ve been working in a project that hopefully will se the light soon and I’ve some ideas to implement next year. Also when I read about my thesis I found that nobody has performed a similar study so it encourages me to keep doing it.

But as nothing can be that bad also I had some nice moments and facts this year:

  • I had the opportunity to teach. I always wanted to do and I felt amazing giving my lectures. I hope to keep doing it the rest of my life.
  • I bought an iPod touch, something that I always wanted.
  • I’ve learn new things regarding my career.
  • I went to some unknown places of my beautiful Colombia.
  • I met some interesting people that challenged me.
  • I realized that when you don’t care about money it comes by itself.
  • I’m beginning to know myself better.
  • I’m the same simple, honest and innocent person as the one who started to being an engineer 8 years ago.

When you look behind you realize that everything was not as bad as you thought, or good depending the point of view. Also you realize that the past is gone, and for me it also means that the future is not written, it is a mystery (the goals for this year were not achieved, as I thought). That means that today is all that matters. That’s is why it is called the "present” (as Master Oogway said :))

Hope that you had a nice 2010 and that this evening you will celebrate the end of it, and the beginning of 2011, with your people, whenever you are and whoever you are :) I send you this picture that presents the beauty of my country, it was taken one year ago and reflects the same day that we are having today in Bogotá.


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