Friday, December 26, 2008

The circle of life

Last night was my first "second" time where I was alone in the flat... why second? because when I arrived here I lived alone in the flat, until David came... Now, I'm alone again because Mathias left the flat in order to live in his new room in "Mom's house". When I arrived home last night I had the same feeling that 11 months before. In that moment I realized something: I am closing circles in my little life in this country. I have at least 20 days more in this country, each day is an opportunity to think about this place, about all the stories here between this environment and me.

I've been thinking on it for the last 12 hours... and I begin to remind that this experience is a little life, every that have happened to me here can be defined as a circle. From food to love, every is a circle, let me give you an example. When I arrived here I only ate food at the "food court" close to here, after getting bored of the same food and expensive prices I decided to use the restaurant that sold food to the company. After several months of eating typical Dominican cheaper lunches, they decided to don't sell anymore... so I had to came back to the "food court", but now with more expensive prices and with only one option "Italian food". As you can see I'm doing the same as the beginning, like closing the circle, and this is only one simple example of all the circles that I'm closing...

Each day I feel that I'm more close to leave, more close to my friends, more close to the cold and more close to definitions... I don't have anything clear about my future... but I think, as Forrest Gump Mom, that "you've got to put the past behind you before you can move on", so maybe is that, I need to close all this circles in order to find what's going next.........

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