Friday, October 24, 2008

Ups and Downs

It's 11 in the night... and I've the feeling that I solve some issue that was killing me during some time. I'm not going to tell you what I discovered, but this give me the impulse to do something... to leave this place before I thought.... I told you that I was thinking on it, in a past post I decided to stay here and give something of me to the people, but now some things have changed. I won't be here for the people, I will stay here until January, just for show to the others how we live a Colombian Christmas! Then I will say good bye... Hopefully this discovery will help me a lot, in order to believe in me, in that I'm a good person, not believe in the future, just believe that life will be better and better, as it does each day that I lived :) Now I'm in one of my downs, but as all the downs there will be an up, when? I don't know, hopefully it will be soon....

I don't know if I can go deeper than now, maybe if there happens something strange... but now I know how deep it can be, because now I realized the base of the problem. This disappoint me a lot, but I can't change anything... I only can learn, grow up and take some experience. Change? of course, change is the only thing that is permanent. Changing myself or change in the way that I live and relate with people? Both! the first more than the last, but I will change some things of me. I don't want it, but people chages you. Somebody killed me few weeks ago, now I have to reborn in order to become more strong, in order to do not make the same mistakes.

I only have one thing to say:

sólo estoy sólo y estoy buscando
es a alguien que me está esperando
que me entienda y si no me entiende
alguien que me comprenda
alguien a alguien para recordar
de memoria cuando estoy de viaje
cuando estoy muy lejos y
soy un vagabundo y camino bastante
alrededor del mundo
pero quiero volver a mi casa
a alguna casa
para encontrar a esa princesa vampira
que respira
que respira y me mira

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