Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Best in the game, worst in love

Tonight I played the best poker game of my life, why? because I won! I never won something in my life... never! In Colombia we said: Best in game, worst in love, I thought that for me was different, because I was always the worst in both.... Sometime ago I discovered that I was good in love, then my lucky was pretty bad. Now is just the opposite.... When I began to play I didn't realize it, now I do...

Now I realize that I want to loose all the games but have some special person who loves me.... My lucky sucks!

Some days ago I'm doing something, after the bath I look myself to the mirror and ask me: If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?, for the last week the answer was NO! Boring job, alone, thinking that some people are stupids kids, discovering that I need smart persons around me, people change..... Sometimes I really feel that I'm wasting my time.... Maybe now I'm in one of my darkest periods of my life. I told to a person a couple of years ago that my life is like a Sin shape, some times you go up, and then you begin to fall. Now I'm close to the deepest part of my falling period. Hopefully I will go up, when? I don't know. But If I learn something of my past periods it was that each time that you go up you will get better and better than the other going up periods.

Regarding my lucky, I don't want to test it again, because If I will, maybe I will discover that I'm not so good in love things.... and you know that love is a very important part of my life. I'm very disappointed, I really didn't want to win, but life has his own method to show you the truth, and tonight I'm thinking that now maybe is not time for love....


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