Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Feliz Año! Happy New year! Frohes neues Jahr! An nou fericit!

A new year's eve is coming and brings to me again all this feelings about the past and the future... All the years is the same for me, thinking about what this years brought to me and what are the things that I will keep in me in order to grow and enjoy more the next year :) . So this thoughts will show you what are this things that for me are the most important, and that I will keep in the deep of my heart :)
  • Going out home: This was the first thing that I did this year. I wanted it for a long time, I applied to work in Google, they didn't call me :( , so AIESEC sent me an email... and the story began :) . When I left home I was 22 in my ID and 19 in my head, I left home with a big smile in my face and tears in my eyes, with my heart beating like a drum and suitcase full of dreams and desires...
  • Living in other place with other people: As I told you, I used to live with and Hungarian, for a long time, after a Greek came and also a German... Live with this incredible people gave to me a lot of personal experience, only to give a name, all this different persons gave me something that helped me to grew up.
  • Cultural Shock: Cultural differences did on me a lot of things, say Hello to everybody (to show that nothing happens if you say it), smile, tolerance and patience...
  • Truly Colombian: Being far from your country makes that you love it more and more each day. Now Colombia means for me the place where I want to stay, where I want to have my family... I know that I will travel a lot, but my "Headquarter" will be my country :) . And also I always am telling to everybody all the beautiful things of Colombia :P .
  • Engineer: After 5 years of hard work I receive my Systems Engineer Degree, as my friends do. This mean for me that all the work that you did, all the things that you do in order to achieve your dreams will bring as result that: your dream. As a teacher told me several years before: "Celebra hoy porque el sabor de la victoria es mucho mas agradable que el amargo del sudor para conseguirla"
  • Simply her: I met a person some months before that change something in my life, for few months she brought me to the heaven, I lived incredible days with her... now things have changed a lot, but in me remains all that incredible days that show me how it feels when you are living a dream :)

The next year is just here, so let me wish you a Happy 2009, that all yours dreams and hopes will be realized and for sure 2009 will be better that this :)

Como se ve en la foto este 2008 se esta acabando, pero el fin no solo es tristeza, tambien muestra un nuevo horizonte, una nueva luz que llega y que irradiara nuestras vidas. 2009 sin duda sera un periodo increible en todas nuestras vidas... el amanecer esta alli no mas, solo necesitamos no dejarlo pasar :)

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Engineer's year

One of the things that I will keep in my heart is that all of my dear friends became engineers!!! After 5 years of hard work, of learning, of share our lives.... we are engineers!! I know that there is one person that is still fighting for it, but I'm sure that she will do it, is just the end of the road that she needs to travel :) .

This is one of this things that changes your life, when you see that all your efforts makes sense, that all the time that you invest in your dreams makes them true :) After this achievement there are more complex responsibilities, life out of the U is not as simple as we thought, the road to travel is long, now is not a 5 years road... is a life road! I'm sure that I will meet again all this incredible persons somewhere in the future, I don't know when, but between us remains that "mystical" link that never will let to loose the contact :P

So, more than things learned, this is part of that things achieved in this year, that is the most incredible year in my life, for sure ;)

Saturday, December 27, 2008

When everything fails...

This week happened all the bad things that can happen in a flat... the company did not pay the electricity, so they cut it off, they told us that they are people going to see the flat in order to buy it, there are huge holes in the floor because the flat has problems with the water pipes.... and the little cherry of the cake: one day before Christmas eve the pipe of the hot water broke.... so all the flat had a very "special" level of water...

So, what do you do when everything fails.... and when you think that it doesn't be worse... something happen and shows you that you were wrong? It's simple! You only have to smile :) . Things happens because a reason, good or bad, everything gives you somehting. So, enjoy it! :P As I did cleaning the flat with this inundation... or went to sleep early because we didn't have electricity. You can find somehing good in every bad thing that happen, the difference between winners and loosers could be defined like that, you are a winner when you wake up after falling and learn something in order to not fall again.

So, regarding this "ending season", I learn this, to smile when everything seems to fail... because you will have a very high probability to learn something new... isn't it?

Friday, December 26, 2008

The circle of life

Last night was my first "second" time where I was alone in the flat... why second? because when I arrived here I lived alone in the flat, until David came... Now, I'm alone again because Mathias left the flat in order to live in his new room in "Mom's house". When I arrived home last night I had the same feeling that 11 months before. In that moment I realized something: I am closing circles in my little life in this country. I have at least 20 days more in this country, each day is an opportunity to think about this place, about all the stories here between this environment and me.

I've been thinking on it for the last 12 hours... and I begin to remind that this experience is a little life, every that have happened to me here can be defined as a circle. From food to love, every is a circle, let me give you an example. When I arrived here I only ate food at the "food court" close to here, after getting bored of the same food and expensive prices I decided to use the restaurant that sold food to the company. After several months of eating typical Dominican cheaper lunches, they decided to don't sell anymore... so I had to came back to the "food court", but now with more expensive prices and with only one option "Italian food". As you can see I'm doing the same as the beginning, like closing the circle, and this is only one simple example of all the circles that I'm closing...

Each day I feel that I'm more close to leave, more close to my friends, more close to the cold and more close to definitions... I don't have anything clear about my future... but I think, as Forrest Gump Mom, that "you've got to put the past behind you before you can move on", so maybe is that, I need to close all this circles in order to find what's going next.........

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Good Persons

All this month I was missing something... the Christmas feeling... that spirit that makes me smile all the day... and yesterday, after having one of the worst days in this place, I had a sunrise in my life. I realize some things that I've been thinking for several weeks and after have strange feelings in my heart, that were annoying me, something blow up all that bad things and now my heart is quiet and kind of happy :) In a next post I will tell you what things I realized, now I want to tell you what is giving me this peace... After 23 days of December, I feel for the first time the Christmas feeling :) in this place.

How did I feel it? It wasn't the lights, the snow, the "novena" or the "natilla"... it was the people... not the people of this country... just people that are close to me and show me the good spirit of this season :)

But, who are this persons? Let me introduce to Joe, an English guy who spend his Christmas free money buying presents for the poor children of the north of the country. He is one of he most nice persons that I've met. He is kind of crazy (as you are if you're and AIESECer :P) but he has a very good heart. Yesterday I was in his home and he brought a lot of toys, like a real Santa, coming from the cold UK to the Caribbean giving presents :) .

The other guy that brought me this special feeling is my dear Alexandru. Now he is on his way to Bavaro, but last night he gave me one of the best presents that I've ever have. My first Moleskine :), for you to know Moleskine is the heir of the legendary notebooks, used by Europeans artists and thinkers for the past two centuries. And he gave me that and said me: "This is for your southamerican trip" and in the dedication he wrote "Because some trips needs to be written down" :) . Howcome you bring an special book, from the other side of the world to gift it in Christmas to a person that you didn't know? That things are done only by good people. With this gift I realize that the next year I have to be in, at least, 5 countries of this world, in order to write something in my Moleskine :) .

This two events in my life, gave me back this Christmas feeling, after 23 days of Christmas season :P . Today is going a very good day, I know that. This week began with a very bad day but now is getting better and better....

Feliz Navidad!!! Merry Christmas!! Boun natale!! Crăciun fericit!! :)

Bueno, este post es corto pero sustancioso. Es solo para desear una muy pero muy feliz navidad a cada una de las personas que siguen este blog, que tengan una muy buena celebracion rodeados de las personas que quieren y que no olviden el significado de esta fecha tan importante, no es solo cuestión de dar un regalo y emborracharse... es mucho mas que eso, es estar en familia, con los amigos, es sentir ese espiritú de paz y alegría que se puede respirar siempre en esta epoca... es recordar que hace mas de 2000 años una persona fue regalada al mundo para mostrarnos que las cosas pueden ser diferentes, que con amor y esfuerzo se puede cambiar nuestro entorno :) .

Merry Christmas to all!! Hope that this Xmas spirit will be with you and with all the people that are close to your heart :) .

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Love Theories

When I left home, eleven months ago, I didn't realize all the things that will happen in this journey. And a proof of that is this post. Let me show you a post that I wrote several months ago, I hide it because I didn't want to think more about it. Today, reading it again, I discover how inspired I was in that moment, everything was clear, and I just realized this. Let me introduce you to... me, two things that define me in the deep of my heart: Love and science :P

Does somebody have a list of requirements, tasks, things to fall in love with a girl?? Sometime ago, I believed that, and I supposed that my list was wrong..... now I don't have a list :), actually I begin to think that there is no algorithm....

Regarding an exelent movie, maybe we always are looking for things that are measurable, we try to find a quantum of love, a measure that indicate me that people loves me. Now I can say that love is something more, more than a measure...

Is a feeling?... of course, love is a feeling.... you know what is love when you feel it!!!!! but its different, because is a shared feeling. Of course, you can love without someone's love, but its not the same, because you don't feel all what love is. Then, what is the difference with the others feelings?? I think that ithe difference is... believing... believe in the love of the other people. We don't need a quantum of love, the measure of love are not the gifts, kisses, poems, songs.... whatever that people give or say when they are in love. Its just to believe that people loves you.... that's the secret!!!

Belief and trust..... that's the point. If you don't believe and trust in the people, then you never be able to love and be loved. I know, this is really difficult, because it hurts when somebody brokes it.... but this is the risk of love.... this is the kind of risks that I like to take :) . Love only exists when you trust and believe in love.... and of curse in the people who love you :).

From my personal exp
erience, I am like St Tomas, not believe until I see... I am accustomed to test everything, because my scientific training, but I learned that there are somethings that cannot be tested, like faith or love. I always try to find the answers to the questions.... It's better if I quote a spechless of one of my favorites movies, A beautiful mind. At the end of the movie when John Nash is speaking he said: "I've always believed in numbers and the equations and logics that lead to reason." For me is the same, I need a proof to believe in things, then I asked to me, what about happiness, can be proven??

The answer is easy, no. I defined some items that you have to achieve to be happy. I was wrong!!!!! Maybe it depends, can vary from person to person. For me happinnes can be defined by one word, LOVE! You can have a job, have money, have a family, have all, but if you don't have love.... for me love works..... In a systems way, love could be the relationships between all the things in life. Without love, nothing can works...

As John Nash said : "
It's only in the mysterious equation of love that any logical reasons can be found". I know that love is maybe the most illogical thing that you can feel :P . But when your life is connected with love, you will be able to so whatever you can get. As I heared in a song (Thank you Raga :P) "The soul has no limitation" And you know what they said... that love is the language of the soul :D....

Now, months after write this I realize that is true, all of this is true. Now I don't have this connections between all my life things, but love is still there, waiting to be reactivated....

Monday, December 22, 2008

Professional Crisis :S

I woke up this morning with the feeling that I don't know what's next... This morning I discovered that the days of being one of the best students of the class, of know what's next, of have a clear near future are gone.... out of the University life is different... not as easy as I thought.

I realized this morning that the only thing that I know is that I don't know anything. Today is one of my "Dias con malparidits cosmica...", I think that I'm not as good as they said, that I was something, and now the world is getting bigger and bigger... I'm afraid to dissapoint myself and the others... days are going so fast and I can't deliver all the things that I want each day....

Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm looking just few things, not the big picture of me... as a friend of mine said to me, we are young and we want to have all the world in our hands, but to do that it will take some time, it doesn't matter how smart or successfully you are, things happens with the time, we have just to follow the road, the correct one, without shortcuts....

I have to define what to do next year before this year ends... days are going and the deadline is just here, all the responsability is on my shoulders, Sincerly, I have fear "miedito", fear of not achieve my dreams, fear of do things that I don't like, of live others life, of do something that at the end is not going to give me anything, of take a wrong choise or desicion... In this moment I really need to trust that good things happen to good people (as a close person of my heart told me last week), and to believe in this.

As she told me "life is a colors box, you born with your colors, and when you begin to meet people you will share your colors, you give and recive colors... you color people's life with your own colors and they put some color on yours... that's life... sharing colors and put some color on people's life :) "

Now I need more color in my life, in order to clean my future... I know that I will find that colors, the question is... when?

Odio los dias de malparidez existencial.......

Saturday, December 20, 2008

What I do all the mornings

I want to share with you what I do all the morning when I arrive to the office, after sleep for few hours, in "sleepy" mode and with not to much interesting tasks to do.

I listen this speech....

This give me the force to keep me sit in that place, to give my best in order to do that tasks, to no complain about the situation, to think that this is the road that I'm walking to achieve my dreams, to hope that tomorrow will be better....

I'm part of, maybe, the most intelligent team that I've ever been. Each day I go for each inch, as the team does. Sometimes it doesn't works, or nobody see it.... but I always am doing the best things for me and for the others, because it will give us, and me, the best results (regarding the goverment dynamics theory :P ). So this speech give me that each day, and... what gives you that extra energy to live each day and go for each inch?

I don’t know what to say, really. Three minutes to the biggest battle of our professional lives. All comes down to today, and either, we heal as a team, or we're gonna crumble. Inch by inch, play by play. Until we're finished. We're in hell right now, gentlemen. Believe me. And, we can stay here, get the shit kicked out of us, or we can fight our way back into the light. We can climb outta hell... one inch at a time. Now I can't do it for ya, I'm too old. I look around, I see these young faces and I think, I mean, I've made every wrong choice a middle-aged man can make. I, uh, I've pissed away all my money, believe it or not. I chased off anyone who's ever loved me. And lately, I can't even stand the face I see in the mirror. You know, when you get old, in life, things get taken from you. I mean, that's... that's... that's a part of life. But, you only learn that when you start losin' stuff. You find out life's this game of inches, so is football. Because in either game - life or football - the margin for error is so small. I mean, one half a step too late or too early and you don't quite make it. One half second too slow, too fast and you don't quite catch it. The inches we need are everywhere around us. They're in every break of the game, every minute, every second. On this team we fight for that inch. On this team we tear ourselves and everyone else around us to pieces for that inch. We claw with our fingernails for that inch. Because we know when add up all those inches, that's gonna make the fucking difference between winning and losing! Between living and dying! I'll tell you this, in any fight it's the guy whose willing to die whose gonna win that inch. And I know, if I'm gonna have any life anymore it's because I'm still willing to fight and die for that inch, because that's what living is, the six inches in front of your face. Now I can't make you do it. You've got to look at the guy next to you, look into his eyes. Now I think ya going to see a guy who will go that inch with you. Your gonna see a guy who will sacrifice himself for this team, because he knows when it comes down to it your gonna do the same for him. That's a team, gentlemen, and either, we heal, now, as a team, or we will die as individuals. That's football guys, that's all it is. Now, what are you gonna do?

Thursday, December 18, 2008


In words of Raga: "Cultural differences will make you evolve...", and how it made me evolve during this year!

Living and working in Dominican Republic was one of the most important challenges of my life. A different culture with different ways to do the things. Each day was a challenge, take the "carrito publico", going to the "colmado", trying to underestand the "mi amol, klk, mardito calor", trying to not speak so much because they will recognize your accent and will ask you money... and also sweating a lot in this place....

All of this made on me a change, from the way I ask for something, now I'm more polite (in order to show that you don't loose anything for say thank you :) ), to the appreciation of the small things in life, like electricity or hot water (small things because in Colombia we have them always....). Maybe I didn't have this huge professional experience that I wanted, but at the personal level this was the experience of my life, discovering a lot of things that are in me and that now I can use in order to be a better world citizen :)

I want to share with you a part of our "MC invitation" video, where you can find what means evolution for us :) .

Smile when someone is taking a picture of you :)

I'm seeing the pictures of the last weekend party, and I see that now I'm smiling in all the pics :) . This is one of the things that I've learned here. I know that I'm not the most beautiful person, and taking into consideration that the pictures of me are not he best, I never smiled to the camera, because I didn't like pictures.

More than 6 months ago I met a person who love to take pictures... after hundred of pictures I learned something.... to smile, why? because the picture will be better if I smile :) (also because I have a "Colgate" smile :P) And I realized that with the last pictures, as you can see in my facebook profile. All the pictures where I'm smiling are very nice. So, as somebody said, smile all the time, because you don't know when someone can fall in love with your smile :)

This is one of the things that I learned here, to smile more often :) (also in the mails an blogs :P)

Wednesday, December 17, 2008


The first lesson that I had in this place was Patience, and that lesson came from a person who left this place yesterday...

David Dul, an Hungarian, that I met 10 months ago... gave me this important lesson, "Patience, tolerance and respect the differences". Me and he are similar in the highest level, you know about ideas, books, that things related to the brain activity that we call emotions, feelings, sensibility.... that things that make us humans :) . In the other hand.... in the base level, I mean, in the behavioral level we are totally differents. He lives like a pig... :P . He doesn't do the cleaning, his room were always dirty, his bathroom...., I had a lot of discussions with him about this. He never changed. After some months of trying to living with him, I began to be more patient. To respect his decisions, to leave him be as he is.

And one moth ago we were drinkin, after talking of everything I realized that he gave one of the most importants lessons in my life, and I told him that, that he is a very important part of my story here in this place. I realized it again yesterday when, with tears in his eyes, he said goodbye to us. Now he is in his country, far far away from this island. That's something that give me hits in my heart... when somebody has shiny eyes. Yesterday I saw in his shiny eyes that human part, that thing that make us similars, that human that is in his heart, that person that I met ten months ago and that yesterday gave me a hit in my heart....

I only have to hope good luck for him, maybe we can meet again in the future.. anyway I only keep in my heart all the good memories from him.. Gracias por todo y ya tu sabe....

Monday, December 15, 2008

Ending season

Today is the first day of my last month in Dominican Republic. For this reason from now I will put in this blog as many post as I can regarding my experience in this island. Good things, others not as good, but without a doubt experiences that made the person who I am now.

So let me open this "Ending season", days are going and the leaving is coming....

Friday, December 12, 2008

La multi ani

Today is 12 of 12, a very particular date. Leaving behind that is the 12 of the month 12, or that is December, or that is Dominican Republic. All of this don't make sense if I don't be in this same time-space (regarding the relative theory :P) with a special person. Why is she special? because she had a special place in my life. Now she has an space in my life and in my heart, I don't know if I have it in her... I don't care, the important thing is what I feel and the good things that I have inside :)

Today I have the fortunate of being here (time-space), in her birthday!!! The first birthday that I share with her, and maybe the last...... Now I've that feeling in my mind and heart, so the only thing that I've to do in this special day is to celebrate.

Life is a game of inches... you have to take each opportunity that you have to be happy. So I will enjoy this day, I know that this is not going to make me happy, but maybe I can help in the happiness of her... and that's enough for me :)

Also, sometimes I think that I could have given more, that the things were in my hands, that maybe I could changed something, that maybe... I know that you can't change anything that happened before, but sometimes I feel that things could be different than now. But the now is now, the day after day that I live, so I've to learn to live with the life that I have now, and each day try to improve it.

This event is telling me that I'm living the last days in this place, that I'm living the last moments of this part of my life; I'm writing the last lines of this golden part of my book, and I want to have a "happy end", like in the magic tales :P .

Solo me queda por decir "FELIZ CUMPLEAÑOS" o La Multi Ani, como mejor lo entiendan :P . Así suene cursi, doy gracias a Dios por haberme dado la oportunidad de compartir este día tan especial contigo, espero que lo imbécil o no que fui ese día haya hecho de el algo especial. Cada vez tendré menos momentos para estar cerca, así que espero aprovecharlos no siendo tan imbécil....

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

New item in the list :)

What means this picture for you? Ask it, and tell me later :P

For me this picture give me an idea, a dream, a new place to go! what is this place... you can check it out. (Is in Spanish, because is more pretty than in English :P)

This is the newest item in my travel list! I don't know when I will be there, maybe after my Southamerican trip or the European trip.. it doesn't matter. The thing is that this island will be one of my places.

Now I have some options to go out, I don't know where I will be, but the decision will be taken sooner. Anyway I want so much to go to a Cuban Son Bar.... Cuba, I will be there!

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

State Superposition... not in a Quantum Level

As we know, in the quantum level we can have objects with two or more measurables states at the same time. This is called Quantum Superposition, I know that is a very complex topic, just think in the Schrödinger's cat, that thought experiment, Gedankenexperiment in german, that creates a cat that is alive and dead at the same time, really strange :P

Why am I talking about this? because today I feel in a Superposition of states.... All the things that I have been telling to you are happening at the same time: Christmas, far from home, loneliness, life decisions, friends, future.... all of this makes me feel a lot of things, creating a superposition of feelings :P . Now I'm quite happy, because I did the task that my boss gave me. During the lunch I will think that I have a lot of stuff to do, so I will lunch fast and come back, quite stressed. After that I will feel tired, because last night I only slept 3 Hours, so I will leave the office and have a meeting with the people of my freelance job :) . I hope that we will sign the contract so I will have the money to buy my Christmas gift!

From black to white.... that's are my days..... aahhh and taking into consideration another little huge thing! that there is a person that is challenging me the most during this last days.... that's another heavy thing on my shoulders. At this point of my life, that was supposed to be quiet, are more difficults, with a lot of things to do, some of them are good and I will enjoy doing them, others are not as good but them have to be done....

Hope that next days are going to be better... if no I will need someone that can Fix me... as the song says....

Pueblito viejo

Yesterday was "Dia de las velitas", an important celebration that we as Colombians have. For me this day was different than the other years, far from home, with a lot of feeling in my heart, and living this day the best as posible, showing to others what we do in this special day :) .

Everything was perfect, but at the end something reminds in me... the fact that I'am far from home. I don't know why I have this feelings and not during the begining of this experience.... maybe because is christmas, and in this place is more like a commercial season than a spiritual and familiar, like in Colombia. Maybe because I'm far from home, maybe because I'm trying to show how we celebrate Christmas in Colombia and all the regards come to my mind, giving to me the sensation of cry...

Now I want to enjoy more this season, living it with my style, with the Colombian style :) I want to share with you a song that makes me regard my home and the feeling that I want to live my best years there, with the woman that I will love and the family that we will have together :) . Definitivamente Colombia es pasion porque los Colombianos tenemos esa pasion que hace que podamos mover el mundo!

Pueblito Viejo

Lunita consentida colgada del cielo
como un farolito que puso mi Dios,
para que alumbraras las noches calladas
de este pueblo viejo de mi corazón.

Pueblito de mis cuitas de cosas pequeñitas
por tus calles tranquilas corrió mi juventud,
por ti aprendí a querer por la primera vez,
y nunca me enseñaste lo que es la ingratitud.

Hoy que vengo a tus lares trayendo mis cantares
y con el alma enferma de tanto padecer,
quiero pueblito viejo morirme aquí en tu suelo
bajo la luz del cielo que un día me vio nacer.

Saturday, December 6, 2008


Yesterday I was in the volunteers day planting trees, an incredible experience. Way back home I was thinking in what is the thing that I like the most of this place. Beaches? Maybe, but I have been in my life more beautiful beaches, like in Jhony Kay Island, close to San Andrés. Women? There are some of them that are beautiful, but not as beautiful and smart as the Colombians or also as my ex-girlfriends. Landscapes? Yep, this country has a lot beautiful landscapes, like in Pico Duarte, on the beaches, or when you go out of the city, you see a lot of forest, trees, mountains. But there is something more beautiful than that.....

The sky!!!! Is incredible! Every day, even if there are clouds, you can see a beautiful sky, maybe because the sea wind cleans blows up all the pollution, maybe because the island is in the caribbean, maybe because is just the very nice characteristic of this country. It doesn't matter what does this sky beautiful... for me is the most beautiful sky that I've ever seen. I will miss it when I will be in another place of this world. For me this sky brings to me peace, tranquility, a feeling of be here, be in this moment, but not be with all my problems, just being in this sky, like fly over it, without leave your sit :) .

Sunday, November 30, 2008

La rosa de Hiroshima

Hoy, escuchando Historia del Mundo como todos los domingos, pude comprender la magnitud del fin de la segunda guerra mundial y quiero compartir este poema sobre el genocidio causado en Japón por las fuerzas norteamericanas.

Piensen en las criaturas
Mudas telepáticas
piensen en las niñas
ciegas inexactas
piensen en las mujeres
rotas alteradas
piensen en las heridas
como rosas cálidas
Pero oh no se olviden
de la rosa de la rosa
de la rosa de Hiroshima
la rosa hereditaria
la rosa radioactiva
estúpida e inválida
la rosa con cirrosis
la antirrosa atómica
sin color sin perfume
sin rosa sin nada

Vinicius de Moraes

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

The begining of the end

This week I lived the first days of my last days in this country. Why I know that? because a lot of people that were in this office were fired. There are new winds coming to this office. The company I work for will be closed. I don't know why, the thing is it will be closed, and the people that still work there will work for another company.

Everyone of us has that kind of "bad" feeling about this, some of the guys want to leave, find another options; I, as a trainee, have to work until January, when my contract finish... and then I will go to another place in this world. Time is giving to me, now I'm finishing it, this time that life gave to me this year out of home, far from friends, from my land, from my people... is ending....

Is incredible how life change every second, one month before I had everthing clear, I wanted to stay here until my Intership ended, and then go back home and live there again. Two weeks before I decided to work abroad, so Colombia will not be an option now. Few days ago the company told us that they are going to sell our flat, and that we ave to find another place to live, me for one and half month, Mathias for four months more and for the new trainees. Definitely the only thing permanent in life is change.

So, what's next? find a new Home, for the time that I will be here, actually I have one now, but I want to find a very nice place for my dears trainees. Try to save money, to go in exchange again, and wait for the most strange and first Christmas out of home.

Measure of success: Number of shiny eyes are around me

This video is one of that things that can touch my heart. As the poem Aprendiendo, this video says a lot of beautiful things of life. My eyes was shiny when I finished watching it. I invite you to watch it. I will leave here some things that I like so much of the video:
  • Leader: Make other people powerful, awakening posibility in other people, when you see shiny eyes you know that you're doing it.
  • Measure of success: Number of shiny eyes are around me
  • I won't never say anything that could stand as the last thing I ever say.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

The most used application now!

Now I'm deciding where I will go the next year. There are some options, and I'm waiting for some answers. Something is true, I'm not going back to Colombia. Why? because I feel that I've to know the world, or at least my continent :P, before come back home. That's the reason because the most used application now for me is Google Earth :P

All the days I'm visiting, from the sky, the posibles cities that I can visit the next year. I'm dreaming, thinking in what is going to happen next year, be excited looking forward, but also looking backward. Regarding all the things that I've lived here, knowing what I want to do, not knowing the steps that I've to follow, just following the light at the end. And Google Earth is giving to me the ideas of how will be it.

As a IT person I can say that google provide one of the best Internet Based applications. I love it, I love all the things that google can give to me and help me in all the things of my life (work, friends, telecommunications, etc). And I'm enjoying this in particular more than the others. The decision is taken, I only need to follow my dreams, become them true and live them.! I'm not sure what will be my next place in this wolrd, but I'm sure that will be another incredible experience. :D

Living in another era

Working in the same office, with people that has more less idea about IT and that in average has the same age as me I discover something.... I don't belong to this era, or maybe to this part of the world :P. All day they are talking about the same American Stupid Series (ASS, jjajajajajaja this could be the acronym...). How you can spend 4 or more hours of your day watching that ASS that is not giving anything to you? It's incredible, a guy that is more than 30 years spend the nights watching this ASS and playing video games, and he has a family and a job.... why he doesn't spend time with his children, enjoying their childhood, giving them that "special time" that will be so appreciated in the future?

I think that it happens for two reasons. First one is because they are like children, they don't matured... The second reason is because this is one of the bastards sons of USA. In this country every smells like USA, they wanted to create an American Dream, so in each street you can find people talking about baseball, a KFC, a MacDonals, a Burguer King... and in this office everybody talking about this ASS. They are living their "American Dream!", just to be prepared to go to USA, the dream of many people here. Maybe the mainly reason is a mix of this.

Being from Southamerica, where we are far from USA, we really enjoy our culture, I can demostrate that people that has cable watch more the national channels, as I did. Because watching your own reallity is 1000 times better than laugh with that stupid american jokes. Maybe they use this ASS to escape from their own reallity, thinking that life in USA are much better.

Being far from a TV for 10 months makes me realize something, that I'm only going to watch TV when something really interesting will be on air, like Discovery Channel, Natgeo or sports :P . Maybe movies and other fun stuff will be there but not all the time. The good thing is that I've less than 2 months here, so this crap conversations about ASS will be finished. I'm sorry for say this, but is the truth, I need more interesting conversations, about everything, but have a smart conversation with someone.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Coffee with milk, pls

I'm drinking my first coffee with milk in this country, and I can't leave this behind, why? because for 22 years of my life I used to drink coffee with milk, all the days, on breakfast or "Onces" in the afternoon. This is like a Family tradition, my grandmother gave me all the time this delicious drink, and then my mom gave to me when I was at home. And all of this drinks are connected in their composition.. Colombian Coffee :P . This coffee that I'm drinking makes me feel like in home, because is quite similar to my Mom's coffee with milk :P .

Maybe this is one of the reasons because here, in this side of the world we are happy, or more than in other places. Because we can find in the small things the reason the be happy. My happines for this moment is this coffee with milk. Is incredible how a simple cup of coffee can make me feel happy, just for this moment. Leaving far from home you learn to appreciate much more the simple things in life.

A simple cup of coffe makes remind me my home, my grandmother and my mom (many important things for me), so, what simple thing can make you remind your important things in life?

Pd. Thank you Pato for the coffee :P

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Y2K, close to 10 years after

I can remember the Y2K paranoid, I was 14 years old, and I can still smell the air of that moment.... Now I discover that I'm getting older. Talking with Raga I realized that this 9 years went so fast, finishing my high school, starting my University, being engineer and living in Dominican republic.... wow, a lot of things, looking only the big picture, in just 9 years, that's one of the reasons of this fast living years.

Getting older... Humm... nothing to said, just that I'm like the wines....... :)

Christmas is coming....

So far, we're close to december, we're close to Xmas, I'm close to live my first december far from home. Everything in this city was changed to recive the Christmas. Since one month everything is becoming green, red and with some "gringo" feeling that I don't like. Leaving behind the fact that this country, specially this city, is surrended to the "American dream" (something that I don't like), this will be a new experience, and more interesting if I take into consideration that we are going to live a multicultural christmas, that we will present to everybody our special Colombian way to do it I will be happy at that moment :)

More feelings that I have in this moments are:
  • A bit sad, because I'm going to miss all the light of my city
  • Missing family and friends.
  • I had a very important thing to do in Christmas, go to the 93 park with a special person to enjoy the holydays.
  • Missing the natilla, buñuelos, chocolate, tamal and all the Christmas food
  • The feeling that this will be an incredible time
  • The need to give special gifts that people will remind forever.
  • Living my first Xmas out of home, but be sure that won't be last.
  • Knowing that I will leave this place in less than two months.
  • Being excited about going to another place to live and enjoy another culture
  • Believing that good things happen to good people and that life has a lot of good things to offer me
I want to end this post with the image of my last night at home, ten months ago, with a beautiful full moon, like the star that guided the three wise men to their destiny :).

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Life Cycles

In this just moment I discover something, I begin to close one of the cycles in my life. How I discovered that? Easy, doing something that put me here, in this part of the world, creating an email to invite people to join us, to join exchange ... to join AIESEC.

Why I'm here? because one year ago, exactly One year an one month ago (for that strange things in life today is 18 :P ) I recived an email, with a very interesting image, telling me that I can go to some place in the world to work, to have an incredible experience. So I applyed, and more than one year after I'm doing the same, inviting people to go in exchange.

Forrest Gump Mom Said: "You've got to put the past behind you before you can move on. " Maybe now I'm doing that, not leaving this experience behind, because this is the experience of my life, just I'm just giving the chance to others to live what I did. I'm giving to them the same idea that changed my life.

When I was more young :P I used to watch a program in Discovery Channel, that was called Connections, where a very funny old guy presented a story, and began to connect the characters, the places, the stories, and after one hour of connecting he returned to the begining of the path, the first story. So I'm doing the same, connecting my last story with the first, after ten months of living here.

It means that everything that this place can gave to me is enough. Now the countdown begins, I've choosen what I want, I want to work abroad again, no for the same reason of this trip, that was change my life, go out home and live something different (instead learning new things of my career); the reason now is that I need to learn a lot of new things that will help me in my professional life, and also to know the world :D

Another thing that gives me the security that I'm doing the correct thing, is my heart. Now it is beating like a drum, showing me the next step in my life. Follow your heart is the only truly way to be happy and success. This how you can be in your "pursuit of happiness", again this movie is appearing in this blog :P

Monday, November 17, 2008

Don’t ever let somebody tell you you can’t do something

If you say to some one that he can't do it you will change his life. And it's true. Regarding the movie where I heared this, "Pursuit of Happyness", the complete quote is this:

“Don’t ever let somebody tell you…you can’t do something. You got a gotta protect it. People can’t do something themselves..they wanna tell you you can’t do it. If you want something go get it“.

Why I'm telling you this, because I discover that one of the reasons of being here is because my parents. They never said that I can't do something. In all the things that I wanted, they gave me all the things that I needed to accomplish my goals. Though they don't like my crazy ideas, like be in a Taekwondo club or going to Dominican Republic, the gave me their help in that or in another crazy stuff. Because of that I'm the person who is right now. They never told me this phrase, but in their actions they teached me that.

And I know a lot of people that is like me. That they go for they goals, for their dreams, for their lifes. Some of them are my friends, and now a lot of them are doing things that they love and that they found after a hard way. I'm so proud of that, of knowing people who has dreams and live thems. And you dear reader, do you go for it? for your dreams? I'm sure of that, because if you are reading this is maybe because you are my friend :)

Every happens because a reason

I'm writing this post with tears in my eyes, the reason, happiness. Because of me? no. Because one of the most importants persons of my past. She was the first love in my live, the first closest friend, the first woman that was close to me and to my heart. Now she is a woman of success, working in one of the most imporant companies of IT in the world. Why she obtained that? The answer is easy: perseverance.

She is one of the smartest persons that I've met. I met her 5 years ago, we had a friendship for 4 years, we were so close friends, working together and sharing lifes together. Each one of us chose a different way in ours lifes, I decided to travel around the world, she decided stay and working in Colombia. Now I'm looking forward, looking for a job in other country, that gives me different things and new knowledge, because the next country has to be a non speaking spanish country. She is working in a multinational company, with an exelent salary and oportunities.

I'm so proud of was a friend of her. I know her a lot, and talking again with her I discover a different person, and it is incredible for me. All the things that happpened to her during this year did the things that are happening to her now. That's the reason of the title of this post. All the things happens because a reason. I will give you an example. We appplyed to a Master in our U, they rejected us! why? I don't know, but looking backward, this was the best that could happened to us. If we were approved, we were now in the Master, and no enjoying our lifes like now.

It's incredible how her life makes me regard a movie, "The pursuit of happyness". After a lot of work, problems and disappointments, she obtained what she wanted. I'm really happy for her, and I'm sure that she will have whatever she wants, as everybody, you only have to wish, you only have to smile and the world will smile with you.

Señorita Diana, muchas gracias por todo, de seguro vas a seguir así y vas a crecer mucho más. Me siento muy orgulloso de haber conocido a una persona como tu en la vida, a pesar que estamos muy distantes, siempre te tengo presente y espero que algún día podamos tomarnos una aromática (tu no tomas café :P). Un abrazo gigante!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Footprints in the sand

Yesterday I was in the most beautiful beach in this county, Bahía de las Aguilas. It's a hard way to go there, going by car after going by boat....

But seeing again the pictures, all the effort was worth it! Leaving behind the fact that we were close to the death in that hurry in the cars.... everything was OK. Now regarding the title of this post, I took a picture that in that moment gave me ideas and I want to share it with you:
What means the footprints in the sand for me? It means all the steps that I walked in my life, some of them are good memories, others no as good as I wanted, but all of them are my life, not only the sum of them. As you can see in the picture there are some footprints that are not as clear as the others, for me those are the ones that I want to forget, to leave behind and go further, like in the memory of the heart definition :) .

Only the deepest steps remains in the sand, that means that only the truly and deepest things that happened in life will stay there, like family, friends, studies, love.... all of them will stay in my life, in my heart, doesn't matter how huge is the wave or how strong is the sea, all the important footprints will stay there... forever...

Some times you can find another footprints close to yours, some times you will be alone, or some times you won't see your footprints, because someone could be carring you in his arms. Doesn't matter what happens, there will be always a footprints in the sand, and when you see behind, you will find your life in the sand :), so what means the footprint for you?

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Living in the United Nations :)

Some time before I discovered that the friends of my roomates call my home "United Nations", why? because we were living there 4 people from different nationality. Until today we were Greece, Hungary, Germany and Colombia. Today one of us left the flat, grecolandia found that his way is not longer more in this country.

I think that this is the begining of the end. Now I can count the days... less than 80... after 10 months of life.....

Living in the United Nations gave me a lot of things, tolerance, patience, auto control, take care of me in all senses, understanding that people are different and no matter how many times you try to teach them the "correct way", they will always do in their way, gave me the way of how I want to live.... This mini United Nations just teached me a lot of things that I needed in my life, now I'm different because of that.

I want to finish this post with this nice picture, that the last member of United Nations took. In this picture are people from UK, Rumania, Dominican Republic, Hungary, Greece, and of course Colombia! 6 nationalities under the same roof, who can do this, its simple, AIESEC.

Discovering the Florentino Ariza Shadow

When I was in high School a very special teacher teached me that we, the Youth, are called to be the Light of the world, we are smart, we have energy, we are like a candle in the middle of the darkness :). I really believe in that, since that moment I have been trying to be a candle, a lot of people told me that I am. In high school people knew that, some times they said me that I pushed them in order to go into their goals. In the university I didn't help as many people as I did in high school, but it was more gratifying.

I always want to be a candle, but some times I feel like a shadow, regarding the main character of "Love in time of Cholera", Florentino Ariza, when his girlfriend, the woman that he loved the most, saw him again after years of be separated, and discovered that all the ideas, dreams and thoughts that she had with him, just desappear, why? because she realized that he was a shadow.....

Recently, I felt that, some times people don't listen to me, don't pay attention to me, is like I don't be here.....

Yes I know, it only happened a few times, but yesterday I really realize it, regarding some mail that I recived, I'm just a number, just a person who count in a company, in an exchange, in a team, and that means some money... where is the person who smile, who laugh, who help, who take care of the others, who love.... ? maybe I'm just a number in the shadow's place in the middle of the caribbean.........

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Manito and his simple life

He is Manito, and this is one day in his life.
  • He works in different places of the neighborhood, doing whatever he can, washing the dishes, fixing things, cleaning.....
  • The paid that he recieves is food
  • And he collects like $50 pesos each day (less than US$2)
  • He spend this money in a little bottle of rum.
  • This is his "Personal dose" and all the time he is in the street or in the alleys.
  • And all the days he does exactly the same.
  • Some times people gives him cigarettes or beer
  • Some people of the neighborhood talks to him asking about how is he, how are you feeling....
  • People can think that he wants money... when the only thing that he needs is food, drinks and someone to talk...

So next time when you think that your life is difficult, that you have problems, that is better if you were not in this world... think about people with other style of life, where the biggest problem is to not earn enough money to buy a little bottle of rum. That maybe there are people outside who has a different meaning for happiness, like Manito, and his simple life....

Living in the "Tigueraje" city

So far I discovered something in this place, after living with Europeans from different parts of Europe, what did I discover? That the only way to know a Culture and understand it is going to the deepest part of a city... as my roomates did :) I don't have the courage to go there and take pictures... but my lovely roomates have it, after months of "Tigueraje Friendship". In this post I want to share with you this Dominican reality, that we see each day when we look outside of the window :) . I have to confess that I've never never been there, in the places where the "Tigueraje" is the law, because I'm really scared that they will steal me something, or that something bad can happen to me, so I present to you the "Tigueraje City" seen from the eyes of the europeans, my lovely roomates ;)

This is the street close to home, in a random nigth

They are the people of our neighborhood, common dominicans, no the ones that is in a Jeep, or in a Porsche, no, they are people who works during the day and enjoy their free time in the nights, with my roomates :P

This happens in the streets, that are close to home, but what happens in the "Barrio"? My roomates went there, and this is what they found...

So what they discovered? A dog, a man and humble houses.....

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Sharing life :)

Now is time to share part of my life with you :) It's difficult to do it, because there are a lot of things to tell, and just few photos to show.... I will try my best :) I will explain all with images, because an image do more than 1000 words :P. I'm going to try the "memory of the heart", just remembering the good times I will be able to forget all the bad shit that happened and happens to me. First: Me! When was 2! Wow! Nice pic :P . It was taken when I was at my baptize. I had a little smile in my face, what makes a baby or a kid smile? just simple things... Ohhh God I want to learn to smile like that! From that moment until two years ago, I don't have anything to show.... All the photos are in physical albums... So I will give you the first photo that I have in my laptop, with my friends, in a birthday of one of my best frinds!

I can say that they are my best friends in University, I didn't remember that I have this photo, one day just looking for something in my laptop I find it! Just good memories!

This will be not complete If I don't have a photo with one of my best friends, Jorgito :P

Jorge is the one that is sleeping :P He is now in UK, enjoying life :) See you next year! Nine months ago I was saying goodby to my country, to my friends, to my family, to her....

In that moment I had like "Mixed Feelings", I was happy because I will live a new experience and sad because I was leaving one of the most importants persons in my life.... Now I believe that this is one of the best decisions that I took in my life, and one of the best experiences too.
Some times you leave things behind you, now I feel a lot of strange things inside because of that, when I came back from Colombia I discovered all the things, places, persons... that I'm leaving behind... It's like Borges says: "Con el tiempo te das cuenta que aunque seas feliz con tus amigos, algún día llorarás por aquellos que dejaste ir" Hope that one day I will find again all this stuff... but only with the time...

For now is enough, this story will be continued.....

Friday, October 24, 2008

Ups and Downs

It's 11 in the night... and I've the feeling that I solve some issue that was killing me during some time. I'm not going to tell you what I discovered, but this give me the impulse to do something... to leave this place before I thought.... I told you that I was thinking on it, in a past post I decided to stay here and give something of me to the people, but now some things have changed. I won't be here for the people, I will stay here until January, just for show to the others how we live a Colombian Christmas! Then I will say good bye... Hopefully this discovery will help me a lot, in order to believe in me, in that I'm a good person, not believe in the future, just believe that life will be better and better, as it does each day that I lived :) Now I'm in one of my downs, but as all the downs there will be an up, when? I don't know, hopefully it will be soon....

I don't know if I can go deeper than now, maybe if there happens something strange... but now I know how deep it can be, because now I realized the base of the problem. This disappoint me a lot, but I can't change anything... I only can learn, grow up and take some experience. Change? of course, change is the only thing that is permanent. Changing myself or change in the way that I live and relate with people? Both! the first more than the last, but I will change some things of me. I don't want it, but people chages you. Somebody killed me few weeks ago, now I have to reborn in order to become more strong, in order to do not make the same mistakes.

I only have one thing to say:

sólo estoy sólo y estoy buscando
es a alguien que me está esperando
que me entienda y si no me entiende
alguien que me comprenda
alguien a alguien para recordar
de memoria cuando estoy de viaje
cuando estoy muy lejos y
soy un vagabundo y camino bastante
alrededor del mundo
pero quiero volver a mi casa
a alguna casa
para encontrar a esa princesa vampira
que respira
que respira y me mira

Todavia una cancion de amor

No te fíes si te juro que imposible
No dudes de mi duda y mí quizás
El amor es igual que un imperdible
Perdido en la solapa del azar.

La luna toma al sol de madrugada
Nunca jamás quiere decir tal vez
La muerte es una amante despechada
Que juega sucio y no sabe perder.

Estoy tratando de decirte que,
Me desespero de esperarte
Que no salgo a buscarte porque sé
Que corro el riesgo de encontrarte.

Que me sigo mordiendo noche y día
Las uñas del rencor
Que te sigo debiendo todavía una canción de amor.

No corras si te llamo de repente
No te vayas si te grito piérdete
A menudo los labios más urgentes
No tienen prisa dos besos después.

Se aferra el corazón a lo perdido
Los ojos que no ven miran mejor
Cantar es disparar contra el olvido
Vivir sin ti, es dormir en la estación.

Estoy tratando de decirte que,
Me desespero de esperarte
Que no salgo a buscarte porque sé
Que corro el riesgo de encontrarte.

Que me sigo mordiendo noche y día
Las uñas del rencor
Que te sigo debiendo todavía una canción de amor.

Que me sigo mordiendo noche y día
Las uñas del rencor
Que te sigo debiendo todavía una canción de amor.